Big girls do cry...alot

Being a new mommy is a hard adjustment. Technically I'm not a new mom since this is my second child. However, I feel like the adjustments are just as hard to make the second time around. This week I got a taste of what it is like to be on my own with the kids.

Unfortunately, I did not do as well as I thought I was going to do. I cried about almost everything the first day. I felt overwhelmed and wished many times that I had an extra set of arms. It's hard when I am feeding the baby and then Sarah needs to be held too. I don't want her to feel left out or like she isn't as special.

I know that all of these feelings are temporary and that as Evan grows it will get better. I do expect more challenges along the way too. I want to do the best I can to make both of my children feel loved. I prayed a lot this week and I know God was listening. It made me feel like I wasn't so alone.

I think next week will be better. Hopefully I will cry a lot less and instead pray a lot more.